Friday, October 5, 2012

New Seasons...



“Courage is the power to let go of the familiar.” –Ray Lindquist

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted, but I must say time takes on a whole different meaning once you have a child.  Lelu is 15-weeks old today, and I’m not sure where that time has gone.  People say it only continues to go faster the older they get.  I’m not feeling sad or nostalgic just just quite yet, but it’s as if I’m just about to catch my breath…and then she reaches a new stage.  It’s when I think teething or solid foods are worlds away, the time creeps up on you…as if someone startled you from around the corner saying, “You weren’t ready for chew toys or the Baby Bullet yet, huh! Well, ha!  Joke’s on you, they don’t stay newborns forever.”

I know they can’t stay small, and I have come to the understanding that time moves so quickly because babies are constantly changing…reflecting the true reality of aging.  But I will say it’s amazing to watch Lelu begin to discover her toes, find herself in the mirror, and let out small giggles.  It’s okay that she’s not a newborn forever, each stage is priceless in it’s own essence.

My husband has been teasing me about being ultra-sensitive to violent movies or TV.  And it’s true, I can’t quite stomach the twisted acts of Dexter’s Doomsday Killer like I would have been able to pre-Lelu.  I do feel ultra-sensitive to life in general--reflecting on a daily basis the science behind babies, & watching in amazement as this miraculous little creature moves and operates.  It may be I’m a bit more sensitive to life because I just gave life 15-weeks ago, and it’s the most precious one I’ve ever witnessed.

So as the Fall weather moves in, and summer has expired, Lelu moves into a baby stage from being a newborn.  A new season of life for this little one who is just beginning.  Meanwhile, I am in an uncharted motherhood role learning to embrace the new and cherishing what has passed, as this beautiful baby grows into her own person each day.

Cheers,
Jenn


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