This Spring has been flying by! And as our birth approaches quickly, there are definitely a whirlwind of emotions circulating around me. For the most part I feel well, there are definitely tired days, but I'm still in full-swing with my job that can be physically tolling. I'm slowly starting to taper off teaching classes while starting birthing classes this month. I'm also trying to make sure I stay plugged in to my own physical health through prenatal massage and personal yoga practice.
The "speculation of the unknown" has started to set in a bit more--wondering what birth will feel like, be like, what motherhood will bring, etc. But all of my wellness practices have helped fight off any anxiety that could manifest when my thoughts get ahead of me. As a friend once told me: information remedies anxiety, and that has proven true when it comes this pregnancy adventure. Having friends and family who have been willing to be candid and open with me about their own birthing and parenting experiences have made the world of difference. I only hope I can offer others the same kind of support after Lelu arrives.
Researching more about childbirth has also been invaluable, learning more about what the body goes through and what women are truly capable of when it comes to delivering a baby. I would say the biggest challenge for me as I anticipate a home water birth is keeping my confidence level high. Natural childbirth is undoubtedly intimidating; but my friends who have chosen that route, and paved the way, continue to remind me that women are built to do this--and I am more than capable of a natural delivery. I remind myself that it is only one day and I can do anything for one day. I go back to the fact that I truly believe in my birthing plan and would feel less comfortable if I chose an alternative way. I remind myself that my body will know what to do when the time comes, it just takes a little trust. I think about the emotional and spiritual transformation that has already taken place over these last several months, and how my childbirth will be a major building block of empowerment within this transformative journey. These are anchoring thoughts, and I gain my confidence when I revisit them.
Overall, I think there is anticipation surrounding any approaching childbirth, the process itself brings many emotional and physical changes. I would say for me, this most important factor through this whole experience has been honoring myself and what I believe is right for me and my child. There is a sense of integrity when you are "true to yourself" and no matter what the future holds, there is no regret when you are able to get in touch with that inner truth and integrity.
My sister-in-law came over last night and did some maternity photos for us--they turned out amazing! She is so talented with such creativity and a great eye for photography. I am happy to include some of the photos on my blog, hope you enjoy!
Jenn!!!!! I'm am so proud and thrilled about your courage to have a birth at home. If I ever have a baby I think I'd like to do it like that. And guess who I'll be calling? You look so beautiful in those pictures, thanks for sharing them. As always, you have such a way with words. I've been thinking on a summer trip to OKC specifically to see you, Liz, and your babies.
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